I have fun on FFXI, i truely love it. I met my future wife on FFXI, the mother of future little taru's.
I've met some great people. Some friends I'll remember long after the game ends.
I got introduced to a great linkshell. Full of characters, some loud, some quiet, some fun, some infuriating
, some bonkers, some that made me happy, some that made me sad. But all my friends.
I never got to play as much as i wanted, maybe sometimes i played too much. But sometimes i thought maybe i missed out.
Missions were fun, Bon, Nil and me did windy missions, then we 3 and Brooky did sandy missions, and it was the best of times. Pals working hard and having fun.
I never really had much gil, Nil was way better at farming than me. Then we did some bcnms. Great fun, plaenty drops, and we split it all down the middle
I always remember never having the best gear. Or even average sometimes. Never really had the chance to get it.
Yall have such nice stuff, maybe i was a lil jealous sometimes.
Then the swift belt incident happened. We got together as pals to get everyone a swift belt. But i had to wait, i was a taru. The NM i'd need to fight was Pandemonium Warden+1.
That felt bad.
Sure i'd get one, but i had to wait. A hume had to pop it for me. I never got a turn in the end, we ran out of time. We never did get to try again.
I hated that NM. He broke my online heart in a way. E-racism i thought. You can't have it, you're a taru.
I made my feelings clear, and you all agreed to help me
. Sod the belt, you just can't imagine how much i hate that little fomor taru NM.
I had max hate, i had a codex, i wanted to kill that NM. But a member started randomly lowering my hate in Misareaux Coast. My head went 'pop'. a few mis-tells later and i left the shell. I felt so let down.
Change of server later, and i come back, bit nervous but i gave it a go. And it all went great. More fun.
Still the gear though. I don't wanna sound whiney. But just once i wanted to have something nice, something rare. Something that people could say they would like to have. Not to show off, just to be on par with my friends.
Then this happened.
Maybe i over reacted.
If i can just explain how it felt.
See, you all get to play whenever you want, so get the chance to get drops every week.
I have no problem with that at all.
But it happened again. I went to the back of the queue. Because i dunno. Not enough time to work it out. I dunno if how i saw the rules was the right way. But it was how i understood them. I was sure the drop would be mine. I still passed it didn't i? i wouldn't see a drop get lost no matter what i felt. It just felt like this little ginger girl didn't matter again. And i went 'pop' once more.
It's odd being me. You know that much.
I would suggest though, get an order of people through /randoms, then whoevers turn it is can pick what area or NM's to go for. I dunno. Say when they get their drop, it's the next persons turn.
I love you all.
Even the beardy one.